the sight of my own breath has been associated with mortality and linked to disparity for longer than i can remember. the conscious effort given. well-being consultants never seem to fully accept their own misfortunes. blaming themselves on science and error escaping flashbacks. oh its quite selective in the manner approaching their gauche decisions. guilt plays its part in the science of man. humans are only fully restored to righteousness if they die before they've been around long enough to become self aware. mortality. challenges of breathing exercises becoming death clocks.
ah distraction. the original grey glaze replacement therapy. the cold snapped through every layer and bit of flesh i owned. the biting temperature gnawed through my spirit right into my nervous system. its defeating. absolutes in any direction were usually disregarded beyond all reasonable doubt, for probability must see its way in. no. not in the instant where i was sulking in pain down the scaffolding parallel and slammed up to the port side deck. the ship must have been a quarter mile long but in this fog it was indeterminable. the mandible of the this ice haze has been thorough in its process of leveling us humanoid bacteria.
struggling to keep a steady foot on frozen planks i followed the only probably path for any other cognitive being to have taken. likely it seemed to me that any spit of human remains were already recycled under further mandible guided obliteration. chances however, are what they are and i used whatever percentage of existence i still owned to to physically move a sick mind into a future of wellness. affirmation beats against self degradation. i never really believed that.
i see life as a get in/get out scenario. not in the manner of doing it in haste but to always remember that you got in and at some point you're definitely going to have to get out. choices are really the fundamental realization of freedom. on your deathbed you have the choice to feel how you want about it. i am choosing to acknowledge the likelihood of death but carry out my will regardless. i am getting on this ship.
